Striving for perfection and throwing ourselves under the bus…

December 2, 2010By elisjamisoncompassion, ego, Failure, letting go, perfection, perfectionism, Perspective, risks, self awareness, self love, self sabotage, unhappiness

Life is inelegant and clumsy and sometimes so are we. It is an improvised dance and often it’s spectacular in it’s ease and grace but just as often, we can trip and fall smack down on our faces.  Life is definitely an equal opportunity provider… a graceful dance and a face plant in the mud,  … Read More

Our only gift

November 15, 2010By elisjamisonDeath, Life, Love, miracle, Mourning, Suicide

There has been a lot of pain in my life over the past few years with an especially hard summer in which I experienced the loss of loved ones due to complications of life and the ultimate simplicity of death. There was so much death in my life this summer that my therapist reflected to … Read More

Alone but not lonely

October 18, 2010By elisjamisonUncategorized

    I’ve arrived at Amed, Bali. It is on the otherside of Gunung Agung mountain..and it’s waters are crystal clear. The moment, I saw the water, my breath immediately deepened and slowed. Without being too cliche, it was like coming home. Of course, it is our goal to always be peaceful. To bring this … Read More

Finding my Father

October 12, 2010By elisjamisonBuddhism, Death, Dying, Meditation, Mindfulness, Mourning, Parkinson's Disease, Plum Village, Sangha, Spirituality, Thich Nhat Hanh 2 Comments

As I end the retreat and begin the second part of this journey, it is clear to me that this trip and this internal/external exploration has been about my relationship with my father: Letting go of my father and finding myself and finding my father and letting go of myself. Yesterday, I was listening to … Read More


October 1, 2010By elisjamisonUncategorized

Just a quick note.  These are not posted in real time unfortunately, as we have just gotten wireless at the retreat facility and it is quirky at best, so I’m bit backlogged….  Hopefully, I’ll catch up at some point. 🙂 Tuesday Sept 28 I traveled to downtown Bogor today with my new friend, Vivian.  It … Read More

For my father

August 1, 2010By elisjamisonAnniversary, Dad, Death, Father 1 Comment

You were my idol You were my heart You were my sunshine You were my worry You were my pain You were my frustration You were my compass You were my guide You were my anger You were my best friend You were my headache You were my laughter You were my tears You were … Read More